my brother says......(the warning)

when i was a little shit back in the day, i had no clue about what my family is, or how mine is built. all i knew was i had a mom, 7 aunts, cousins and my brother. the thing is,80% of my family are women. the men die young, so the women rule the green name. i didnt know what this meant at all........

for six ys i have been with the most wonderful girl in my eyes. i think she great! but for six years i have also been stupid....hurting her in ways im ashamed to speak of.....if i did,certain friends would slap me. ways that even make me think, if i love her so, why am i doing this. i can't help but think in the end i will be repayed in the affect of just dying alone.....nobody wants to die alone. lately me and this woman have been great. we kiss more, talk more, laugh more.....more so because i decided to clean up my act......(it's a trying process at that....one that i tend to fall through from time to time).......but im learning to be a good man day by day.

but the affects of my past and present ways have come back to bite me in my ass as to where right now, this moment, i need to cease for the better. i mean i can see it being me as the one to fuck shit up and ruin things, but another woman....naw, i can't have that. i've come to learn that women, when angry or even bothered, carry three things: malice, spite and above all they are vindictive. now this doesn't aply to all women......no, yes it does.....go ahead and fuck one over and call me in the morning and tell me different. some are cool, fuck,even some play they part.
even the cool ones might throw in a smart ass remark here and there. but what if the past threatens your future? like out of nowhere somebody comes back into your life with some bullshit and the only thing stopping you from farting in her face and punching her in her throat is the fact that she is a woman. i know im fucked up, a dog at times and just a plain asshole and i may have hurt alot of people in my young life. but i figure if i get over it maybe they will? i don't know.....sorry didn't work bitch? anyway right now, im blocking it. tryin not to feed into it or pay it mind.

but when i think about it, and what i might do, my brothers words repeat in my mind.....

"this family ain't filled with shit but young and old matriarchs......queens and queens to be. you got the queens that just go to school, work, come home and handle they bizz, you go the ones who are care free and just do them....then kurtis you got the grimy queens...you now who they are! they just the worse type of bitches to fuck with i know kurtis i know. gangbangin and all. but they all strong, all independant and all beautiful. and the one thing they all have in common is.......they love annie....every last one. they just love annie. and they have her back too. annie may not know but they do. and trust me if a bitch just happens to get in the way, you just put a string on that bitch hang her in front of them like a porkchop and they will eat her alive trust me......shelly still got that order out on cousin kim....."